You live, you learn

Sometimes you can hear everyone give the same advice, blow them off only to realize later they were right.  As I see all the new freshmen making new memories, new friends and whole new series of firsts, I can't help but be a little jealous and just hope they don't make the mistakes I did.  I think of my first semester of college, how I secluded myself in my dorm room with headphones on trying to cling on the past, trying to overcome a huge emotional set back from an event weeks before I went off to college and just overall afraid to put myself into situations I still had some emotional scars from trying before.  If I knew then what I learned just a semester later and realized at an even deeper level as the years have gone by, perhaps I would be on a different path than I ended up on.  Perhaps I would have taken the perfect opportunity to break out of my comfort zone (after all, everyone's doing it their first semester), learn that the past doesn't always repeat itself and that I know I will make it through, I wouldn't have as many regrets as I have accumulated.

Don't get me wrong, the path I ended up on has given me some people who I wouldn't be who I am without them, I did break my comfort zone in due time and while there are still moments I wish I had done something different than what I did, I can't say for sure I would be where I am today, who I am today if I had done things differently.


granted, I definitely wish I did my homework without procrastination and learned to back up stuff in time.

living on dreams and spaghettios

I am nerdy and enjoy doing math problems the old fashion handwritten way, except I find myself doubting my abilities when decimals are involved.

I enjoy shopping, but without knowing what job I will have once the seasonal one ends makes it hard to justify some purchases.

I realized the other day I have not been to an amusement park since going to Paramount Carowinds the summer before senior year of high school.  sad day.

Last week, I was able to get my Microsoft Photo Editor program back.  the program has been obsolete since Office 2003 but I still love it because of its simplicity and functionality.  I don't care what Microsoft thinks.

I love Starburst FaveREDS

Whenever someone says "sexy librarian" I instantly think of my mom, a librarian, and proceed to shudder.

HotTopic novelty tees are reminding me of the television I grew up on.  awesome

The Old Navy near me sucks, and the next closet one is 40 miles away.  boo hiss.

I have too many socks.

Camp Firefly starts tomorrow night, and I won't be there for the first time in eleven years.  my heart is breaking.

I have been eating out too much recently.  blame American culture for making eating such a social activity as well as free wi-fi at Panera.

I am proud of myself for waiting over a year to buy a book I really wanted in paperback instead of splurging on the hardcover.

Everytime I have gone to Target this summer and see their back to school stuff, I am reminded how I still have and use my locker shelf I bought from them the summer before seven grade in 1998.  amazing and and kinda sad at the same time.