Oh the things you can think

I think it's kinda funny I went to two schools named after bodies of water and then to a college named after a sailor.

My mom ran into my 6th grade teacher last week.  besides all these old memories stirring up, she had a comeback to something my mom said that now I'm trying to decide if I should be insulted, impressed or a little of both.

To make sense of a line from the previous entry, I had originally decided to be partly involved with APO this semester but changed my mind mid-September.  it was one of the hardest decisions I had to make but for me, I know it was the right one.  that doesn't make me miss it any less.

I love renaissance festivals, and have yet to come across one that ranks higher on the scale of awesome than the Maryland renaissance festival.

it's fall break at CNU, which for me the only difference will be no class on Monday.  work, homework and life as I know it will otherwise go on as normal.

I seriously love my job.

I am trying to figure out a good halloween costume, even though I have no idea what my plans for the holiday will entail.

I see life as a spectrum.  life is full of gray areas.

I miss the days when I could log right into my school email inbox, instead of having to click a few links first.

I recently ruined the Disney song "Kiss the Girl" for myself with one thought.

Just thinking how I am 25 years old, and there is so much I wish I would have done by now.  like lose my concert virginity.

Time after time

it is October.  I have four boxes of girl scout cookies.  that's right, be jealous

I suck at keeping in contact with people.

Year after year, I remember why I love Camp Firefly.  the major withdrawal this year only made me remember more.

I just watched Lilo and Stitch for the first time.   Love.

I love my job.

My APO life membership pin came today.  money well spent

I wish I could wear headbands without getting headaches.

I love doing arts and crafts, especially for friends but always take forever.

I constantly misplace my mail key.

On a ninja - pirate spectrum, I fall in the "Nautical Ninja" category.  ninja with some pirate characteristics.

I like the idea of google instant but can't use it because it slows down my already sluggish internet.

another draft that took over a month to complete.

You live, you learn

Sometimes you can hear everyone give the same advice, blow them off only to realize later they were right.  As I see all the new freshmen making new memories, new friends and whole new series of firsts, I can't help but be a little jealous and just hope they don't make the mistakes I did.  I think of my first semester of college, how I secluded myself in my dorm room with headphones on trying to cling on the past, trying to overcome a huge emotional set back from an event weeks before I went off to college and just overall afraid to put myself into situations I still had some emotional scars from trying before.  If I knew then what I learned just a semester later and realized at an even deeper level as the years have gone by, perhaps I would be on a different path than I ended up on.  Perhaps I would have taken the perfect opportunity to break out of my comfort zone (after all, everyone's doing it their first semester), learn that the past doesn't always repeat itself and that I know I will make it through, I wouldn't have as many regrets as I have accumulated.

Don't get me wrong, the path I ended up on has given me some people who I wouldn't be who I am without them, I did break my comfort zone in due time and while there are still moments I wish I had done something different than what I did, I can't say for sure I would be where I am today, who I am today if I had done things differently.


granted, I definitely wish I did my homework without procrastination and learned to back up stuff in time.

living on dreams and spaghettios

I am nerdy and enjoy doing math problems the old fashion handwritten way, except I find myself doubting my abilities when decimals are involved.

I enjoy shopping, but without knowing what job I will have once the seasonal one ends makes it hard to justify some purchases.

I realized the other day I have not been to an amusement park since going to Paramount Carowinds the summer before senior year of high school.  sad day.

Last week, I was able to get my Microsoft Photo Editor program back.  the program has been obsolete since Office 2003 but I still love it because of its simplicity and functionality.  I don't care what Microsoft thinks.

I love Starburst FaveREDS

Whenever someone says "sexy librarian" I instantly think of my mom, a librarian, and proceed to shudder.

HotTopic novelty tees are reminding me of the television I grew up on.  awesome

The Old Navy near me sucks, and the next closet one is 40 miles away.  boo hiss.

I have too many socks.

Camp Firefly starts tomorrow night, and I won't be there for the first time in eleven years.  my heart is breaking.

I have been eating out too much recently.  blame American culture for making eating such a social activity as well as free wi-fi at Panera.

I am proud of myself for waiting over a year to buy a book I really wanted in paperback instead of splurging on the hardcover.

Everytime I have gone to Target this summer and see their back to school stuff, I am reminded how I still have and use my locker shelf I bought from them the summer before seven grade in 1998.  amazing and and kinda sad at the same time.

The '70s had the Hustle. The '80s, the moonwalk. We have the faux-lesbian dance.

got a wall-e pez dispenser.  it was the highlight of the day =)

a town in Virginia is NOT missing its idiot known as Ken Cuccinelli

at work, there is a book I skimmed about Mia Hamm and I got all excited when my hometown and high school were mentioned, even though I specifically skimmed the book to find them.  the kids called me silly, they didn't even know that second part.

I am moving at the end of the month, and don't even know where.  the sad part is I'm really not slacking.

I drove on Girl Scout Road the other day.  I was a bit too excited about it.  and now I'm on a personal quest to figure out the abandoned Girl Scout Camp nearby is that: abandoned.

borders gives me too many coupons for my own good.

the refurbished phone I bought from verizon can't hold a charge very well.  well, that wasn't the whole point of buying it at all.

last week, I bought a nintendo game cube at a thrift store for $9.50.  I am trying not to think how it's a tad pathetic that I will pay more for games than I did the system itself.

today, had a veronica mars marathon.  forgot how much I loved that show.

an entry almost two months in the making

I consider a day productive when I do a daunting chore I have been putting off for weeks, or in some cases, months.

currently have a love-hate relationship with the DMV.  hate that they forgot to tell me something critically important but love that while clearing up that matter, they let me renew my license five months early.

I am officially no longer my APO Chapter's webmaster, a role I have held for three years.  it feels weird.

it's sad that the main reason I no longer keep myself updated on the local news from home is because I didn't like a website design.

I am fighting a war in my apartment.  it's me verse gnats.  there might be more of them than me but I have a can of bug killer and know how to use it.

construction on Warwick Blvd that has been going on for ages is nearing completion, I enjoy driving 45 on parts just last week I was only allowed 25.

last night, many years late, I finally finished the Harry Potter series.  major props go to J.K. Rowling.

I just looked at some photos of my old high school my old drama teacher posted.  they got rid of the flag hallway, or for better words, got rid of the flags that gave it the name flag hallway.  a little part of me just broke.

never quite understood why different subject areas like to cite different ways.  can't we make some universal research citation guide?!

I am the cursed computer girl.  fortunately, it has yet to affect any computers I use other than my own.

I started this entry as a draft on April 19th.  I am just getting back to it.

These are the days when you wish your bed was already made

Monday, I took what should be my last test of my college career, since the final doesn't really count.

on Sunday, I wore a skirt.  all day.  and actually liked it.  and then again on Tuesday.  and still liked it.

in some pictures of me in said skirt, I realized my legs are pasty.

my personal debate: which is better, Yoplait yogurt or Dannon yogurt

you know your school is ghetto when to keep the grass green, they spray paint it.

you know you've been at your college too long when you go to recycle a textbook from freshmen year, and before dropping it, find a receipt in it... from 2005.

I want a big rain storm in the next few days, just so I don't have to put as much effort into washing the pollen off my car.

today was my last official class.  the next two weeks are optional presentations.

I keep having the idea to check my what-if analysis to make sure I REALLY am weeks away from being done.  the problem is I got this desire during the peak of class registration for next semester and the system won't load due to so many people using it.

find friends you always light up your day, no matter how bad it might be.  those are the friends worth keeping.

today, I bought my graduation regalia.  I think it's really, finally going to happen.

it's warm days like these that remind me how much I hate shaving.

You realize the sun doesn't go down It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Last night at the grocery store, their sound system was playing Savage Garden's Crash and Burn.  I totally sang along.

One thing I love about Virginia is we have amongst the highest number of people with vanity plates.  it makes driving along highways fun.

Yesterday, while driving on the highway, I passed a truck broken down.  this truck had picnic tables strapped to it, and the driver and his passenger were sitting at the one on their truck bed, eating while waiting for assistance.  it made me giggle.

I have decided that the one feature my next car MUST have is cruise control.  I am fine without automatic locks, windows, etc, but cruise driving is a necessity.  driven on highways too much to not want to take advantage of such feature

I am sitting in my room at my parents house, looking around at all the random trinkets and stuff, and realize majority of them tell a story.

I find it kinda funny that what is now a sleep shirt was once a shirt for a job.

There should be a store that sells strictly glow and the dark stuff.

Purple is my color.

Last night, my  mom asked me what a cock-block was.  because that's not awkward at all.

For the first time in my college career, I have an overdue library book.  and there's nothing I can currently do about it since I am over 150 miles away from the library.

My high school year books weigh 5 pounds.  each.

I really want to go camping.

I really want to see Wicked.

Today is one of those days where I put my hair up without thinking, it turned out good and now I'll want to recreate the look, but never quite get it right.

getting my parents addicted to NCIS, because I'm a good kid like that.

Happy April Fools Day!

Saw an amazing moonlight on the ocean and then watched the sun rise on the same ocean.  All in the name of doing my parents a huge favor.

I am trying to take a look at my degree evaluation just to make sure I am really just a few weeks and a handful of assignments away from graduation, but the system won't load.  of course, I get the urge to check on things the same day people are overloading the system by signing up for classes.

The ocean makes me relax.  perhaps one day, I will live with the ocean outside my window, or at least  with the ocean just a few miles away.

Google is throwing me off today by calling themselves Topeka.  yes, I realize it's because the town in Kansas temporarily changed their name and because it's April fools day, but that doesn't stop me from tilting my head in confusion very time I go to that page.

Always stuck in that debate of when to give up and when to try harder.  doesn't help I flip-flop so much.

Yesterday, I bought a skirt of my own free choosing that is for casual stuff.  the more I go girly, the more I somewhat scare myself.  now to attempt to conquer this make-up thing

Often, I wonder: how does everyone know this common sense social etiquette stuff and I don't?

The first step is admitting you have a problem, but what's the second?

I unintentionally have a word/phrase of the week every week.  this week: ballin'

I watched some original Sailor Moon last night, and laughed at the cheesiness and over-dramatics of it all.  because bad acting (even if it's animation) makes me laugh.

Part of me hates April fools day because I can't always tell what's meant to be a joke and what's not, or hear/read jokes I wish were true.

It's not always rainbows and butterflies

Liisa has decided to follow me.  look at me, I have a follower!

my 101 things in 1001 days is becoming a bucket list, because procrastination happens and deadlines and motivation work against each other.

I am most at peace in nature.

Friends are telling me I should go into law enforcement, cop-related except not a cop.  too many reasons I don't trust myself with a gun.

hmm... maybe I should become a park ranger.   law enforcement (but not cop) and nature.  but then again, they carry guns, don't they

I am filling out the Census form for myself for the first time, and am actually excited.  nerd?

Conan O'Brien is doing a stand-up tour.  it's called "Conan O'Brien - Legally Prohibited From Being Funny On Television Tour" (such a wonderful title!)- there's a stop in D.C. on June 8th and I just need to find someone to go with me and tickets will be booked.  I am dead serious about this.  I spazzed when I saw there'd be a stop in D.C.

Conan O'Brien, Stephen Colbert and Jon Stewart is the most amazing combination of comedians EVER.  just wish that I could view the last part of their brawl but NBC won't let anyone post the video and took it down off their website ages ago.  buggers.

There's a fine line between explaining yourself and TMI.  unfortunately, I always figure out I cross the line too late.

I know I need to start looking for a job for once graduation arrives, but it's so stressful and I don't need/want any additional stress.  the lack of success during my search in January/February doesn't lift my spirits much either.  my motto: first things first.  as in, get the degree first, then search for jobs.

fall 2010 marks twenty years of me being a registered girl scout.  huzzah!  I shall celebrate by either eating Girl Scout cookies or some Edy's Girl Scout cookie ice cream.



I sometimes feel like I live life in reverse.  more of those events that should happen later in life happened all by the time I reached college, and stuff that should happen before college will likely occur after (still got a few months, so we'll see)