I got into a speel the other day about how I felt a person was always shrugging me off or otherwise doesn't take what I say seriously. This got me thinking (once again) how I wish I could restart some relationships. There's a good amount of relationships that I feel I got off on the wrong foot with people and now things just aren't that great. And I always get off on the wrong foot with people for one, if not more, of three reasons
1. I'm too caught up in the moment for proper introductions (have it be running around, engaged in another conversation or just lost in my own little world)
2. I don't think about the proper introduction until it's too late
3. For whatever reason, I'm not remember to break out of my comfort zone and meet new people. Sometimes this has to do with the others seem to already have their clique and I'm nervous to try to break into the circle.
I am constantly trying to improve myself in the areas I feel I need to improve, but it goes back to my trouble of being caught in the moment. I don't always remember this stuff when it's most critical. also, I seem at loss to engage in normal conversation. give me the socially awkward label and let's be done with it. I truly want to shrug off the label but it's harder than I ever thought it would be.
but the relationships that are already existing in the state they are, how do I make things better? is it even worth the effort with some of them?
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